Forgive me for the lack of updates. I have been way too busy with either school, studying, myself, or that i dont find the need to update this journal of mine. 

Lately, i realised that i need the whole table to myself in class, i know its a little bit selfish but just so i could put my things in a suitable position where i dont end up knocking it down to the floor in between lessons. and yes it happened a couple of times before till the guy infront of my table had to pick up my pens and papers for me, it was so embarrassing. compared to the space i need now then back in ite is a huge difference, whereby i only need half of the table or maybe just a small space so i could put my head on the table to sleep. thats how much i really dislike going to school back then, the bunch of friends were undeniably great but nothing seems to make me want to come to school as often as i am supposed to. thats why i called it play-school because we are always playing a fool during lessons and skipping classes way too often and up till today i wonder how i suck it through the years, horrible horrible days. if i were given a chance, i will never ever want to repeat it back again. so back to the table, even at home i need a table which is big enough for me to study even the one in my room is not enough so most of the time i study at the dinning table which is big enough for my books, papers and stationaries. i just dont understand why i need such a big table to study and at the end of it the table is in such a huge mess, i dont even know how to describe it to you.

today i learnt that, every human being should/must satisfy their basic needs first in order to get to the next level and if we were to skip this important level in life, we may end up hurting not our own self but the people around us and this is really wrong. therefore, if you're not ready to do something it is the best to take a step down rather than to go forward, even business may wind up because of a small step you take that you know you're not ready for, so have you satisfy/satisfied your basic needs? I know i have yet too.